To be completely honest, I didn’t feel good this week. I get severe symptoms with my periods, and spent a lot of time this week dealing with pain, nausea and fatigue. It was all I could do to get my work done for my job.

Something cool I discovered this week though was that I’m what’s known as a Highly Sensitive Person, or HSP. You can take this test to see if you are one as well:

A friend of mine said today that she feels like she knows me better after taking that test, knowing that I got a 25 on it (out of 27 total, I believe.) Since I took the test on Monday, I’ve done a lot more research into it, and have almost finished reading the book The Highly Sensitive Person by Dr. Elaine Aron. It’s been more validating than I would have thought. There is so much interesting research that has been done about the trait, and it comes with both negative and positive aspects, like most things in life. I enjoy a richness in both my outer and inner worlds, at the cost of becoming easily overwhelmed by them. I am creative and a great thinker, but it takes a lot out of me to use my brain. I hope that with the techniques in the book, I can learn how to take care of myself better. As it is, I don’t feel well quite a lot. I get headaches, upset stomachs, intense mood swings, anxiety and depression, aches and pains, that sort of thing. I don’t know how this new information will affect me in the long run, but I sense that it might be a bit of a turning point.

What I’m Working On

A whole lotta nothin’! Seriously this week I did nothing until like, Saturday when I tweaked the mix of Moment of Weakness. Then I released it this morning. I was really scared of this song! Sharing it with people. It feels like a rather bold step for me. It’s my first original song that’s not “inspired by” something in like…gosh, years actually. I was very anxious about it this morning, that nobody would like it. But I want to be bold. I want to give what I’ve got to give and let the cards fall where they will, you know? Be true to myself and just let people either like it or not. Easier said than done, but I’ll keep at it.

What I’m Listening To

This week I started watching this awesome documentary called Soundbreaking. It’s episodic. It’s kind of about music production throughout the decades. I’m really enjoying it.

Next Week

I don’t know. It’s hard to be ambitious when I feel like crap. My job has to come first, so I will be happy if I have enough energy to work on music next week at all!

Have a nice week everyone. 🙂