I didn’t have a very good week. Or maybe it was just a tough week. I feel like there’s something happening in my life, like I need to grow in some way. You know when something pops up in your life that you inexplicably can’t deal with? And maybe there are a few examples that help make it clear where you have a problem? That’s what I feel like is happening. It’s something to do with… putting pressure on myself, perfectionism, and keeping up appearances. I feel as though I need to change, and that’s hard to do. Maybe I can write a song about it or something.

The way I see it, I won’t be around tomorrow. Let alone a year from now. Some other woman will be here. She may remember me, but I won’t be around to meet her. And I want that woman to have a better life than me. I’ve started a new journal so that I can write letters to her, and to keep a record of the sacrifices I make so that she can have a better life. Things like exercising when I don’t feel like it so that she can be in better shape, sticking with my job even when it’s hard so that she can have enough money, finding time to relax even when I can’t stand “wasting time,” so that maybe someday it won’t be so hard for her to find peace. She can look back at this journal and see how much she is loved. And I hope it inspires her to continue to pay it forward.

Photo of the Week

This week we took some macro shots of my guitar’s fret board. This one is really cool to me. I can imagine that the photograph is taken from the deck of a boat at night. In the distance you can see the moon reflecting off the water.

What I’m Working On

I did a couple of small things this week.

I have a plan to do podcasts about my songs, and I figured out how I can capture the audio for that so that I’ll be good to go whenever I want to do my first one.

I also worked on Before It Gets Me. It’s just about finished. I’ll come back to it and tweak the mix this week before releasing it. Something I spent a few hours on was actually transition effects in a sense… you’ll hear it in the song, right before the second verse. It’s this great big swell, and it went through many iterations, lol. I knew how I wanted it to feel, but not how I wanted it to sound. So it took a while to experiment! But I learned some neat tricks along the way.

What I’m Listening To

I didn’t listen to a lot of music this week. So I’ll just leave you some songs by artists that I think are fantastic.

Next Week

Hmm, thinking about next week makes me feel anxious. Well, realistically I’ll probably release Before It Gets Me. Other than that, I have no idea. Catch you next week. Oh, and thanks for reading. 🙂